I wonder...

I wonder if you think of me
In the way I think of you
I wonder, do you say my name
Without merely thoughts of gain

I wonder if I hugged you
Would you hug me in return?
I wonder if I gave you a chance
Would you not make me regret it?

I wonder should I let you in
Or merely play along?
After all I don't know your feeling
Nor what happens if I'm wrong?

Am I using you like the others
Or do I really care?
Do I really want a connection
Or just a physical flare?

Is that all you want?
Or are you seeking something I won't give.
Is it really alright
For me to think of you and grin

I want to hug you close
And hug you tight.
Maybe it's just my flesh
Maybe it's the thought of us near.

Not near in a physical way
But instead emotionally.
However, we're just too different
There's not much to compare


I realize I don't rhyme
But I just can't in this turmoil
That yearns for us to be close
And wants for us to be distant

I wonder and wonder
Without really an end
I wonder and wonder
What to make of you, my friend

When Life Gets You Down

I don't know what I feel
Or if it's something real
I sit on this occasion
I frown at the objection

Yes, sure it may be not
But please let me believe
That while inside I rot
My outside knows its free

Please, just let it go
This feeling I confessed
I took a chance and lost
And now can't make amends

I feel as though around me
My life keeps passing through
With no certain direction
With way too many moods

I'm getting sick and tired
Of waiting for my turn
I'll build myself a wall
I'll take my chance and run

Far from these emotions
All I can't comprehend
Running from devotions
Until I reach my end

I'm wishing to do better
But somehow I just can't
This feeling's taking over
And now I cannot end

Oh well, so much for closeness
Or letting anyone near
It's time to reach our ending
This chapter's end is here

But what will life bring next
Well I'll just wait and see
There's nothing left to do
But trust that I'll get through

And just maybe I might
And just maybe I'll find
That thing that I've been searching for
The one who'll reach my heart

What do I do?

These feelings inside
I can't seem to hide
They drive me apart
And shred up my heart

I once again seem
to simply cave in
And let creep a smile
That stays for awhile

But what do I do
When I'm feeling blue?
When I find I can't stand
And much less understand?

What do I do
When gravity pulls?
What do I do
When I become just like fools?

It doesn't matter
Because I will pull through
Just you wait and see
The person I'll be

No matter what happens
I'll keep holding on
'til I find my answer
'til I reach my home

Niagara Falls

The wonders brought by nature
One cannot comprehend
Though one has to admit
They're filled with life and trend